Good?

God is good. How can such a simple statement sum up how I feel about God? I know that some days when that statement comes from my mouth I really believe it in my heart. Other days it just kind of slips through my lips because it is how I “should respond."

I think my heart and my head are two different places. I know things in my head…. Jesus loves me more than anyone else can…God's will is His perfect plan… God allows trials…Jesus can heal my broken heart…God can comfort my pain and grief…God created me in His image, therefore I am perfect in His eyes… I could go on and on about the things I know in my head.

The things I know in my heart are different. If I could just get all of the information to my heart from my head, I would be so much better off. There are days when I question God’s perfect love for me. These days make me question the goodness of my God. I struggle with thought such as…if God loves me then why do I struggle with my family relationships? Why did I have cancer? Why did so many of my friends die? Why couldn't I have learned these lessons in and easier way? Why is my family so divided? Why are relationships so hard? Why am I not married? If God is good, why is ministry hard? I could go on and on.

So when it comes down to it, I always know that God is good. I just don’t feel it all of the time. THIS is the one of the biggest struggles in my heart. There is such a vast space between my heart and my head. God, would you please bridge the gap so that I can live in a place of consistency in my relationship with you in order that I may Glorify you in all I do?