I want to be like Mike, I mean Jacob

WOW! The last few days have been exhausting. Mental, physically and mostly spiritual. I want to be like Jacob. In Genesis 32, Jacob pours out his heart to God. He tells God his fears and the "real" matter of his heart. God then wrestles with Jacob all night long. Jacob never quits. Do you realize the physical exhorting that it takes to wrestle for a few minutes, much less all night? He prayed ALL NIGHT long. This didn't affect Jacob, he kept praying and kept wrestling. In the morning Jacob found out that he had wrestled with God and had overcome! Jacob was proved faithful! I want to be like Jacob. I feel like I am in a place of wrestling with God on a daily basis about the same topic. I pray. I sit still. I listen. Then I start over. This whole process is tiring, mostly emotionally and spiritually. Surprisingly, God has me up for hours at a time in the still of night, He allows me to be physically rested in the morning. I can't understand that and I have seen it time and time again in these last few weeks. My heart wants to wrestle with God and search for answers. I want to be at peace with God. I want to be DONE wrestling God. I want to be like Jacob and overcome! I want God to trust me because I am faithful.