Growing Up?

I have no idea how it got to be Friday. Oh, yes I do! I have been Grandma sitting all week. My grandma is in town from Chicago and she requires a lot of attention. We have spent 2 hours and 40 minutes at Wal-Mart, in ONE trip and 2 hrs at the grocery store in one trip. I really want to do good things for her and be kind. I am trying really hard not to get frustrated with her, and sometimes that is hard. Grandma is mentally ill (I am not kidding.) so at any moment she can "snap." It happened at the grocery store, not much fun. She is going to be here for a few more weeks, so I am praying for God to calm her and add to my patience.

I have realized it is time to "grow up." I am almost 25 and I am done doing what everyone else wants me to do all of the time. I am at the point now where I feel like even my relationship with God is being dictated by people around me. I know this is not what God wants or what I want. When I start talking to people it is going to be hard and very uncomfortable. All of these people are older and "more mature Christians" (whatever that means, to me it makes me think that they are better than me) Now I just need the courage to act. The Bible says that Iron sharpened iron, but I am sure that doesn't happen without sparks. I am looking at this whole situation as refining and defining moments of my life. I am scared and need courage. Even in the middle of fear and I can't wait to see what eternal and amazing things God is going to do.