Wish you were here...

Its evening and the sun is setting on one side of the sky as a storm rolls in from the other side. A few days ago I noticed a few fire flies in the yard close to the cow pasture and across it close to the tree line. Tonight there are hundreds, if not thousands. It is one of the most amazing things I have ever seen. The pasture is dark and all you can see is that greenish-yellow flash from all of the fire flies. In the distance there is real lightning, which adds to the beauty and awe of the moment.
I think most of us have these moments, words will not do in explaining what we saw and experienced. The moments when I seem so small and God seems so big.The moments you want to share with those you love, and those who need a smile. A moment you wish you could hold in your pocket for days filled with grief and dissatisfaction. Moments that, in our society, seem so far and few between.

As I was watching the fire flies and lightning in the distance, I thought about all the hours I spent as a child (and even an adult!) hunting "lightning bugs." There was a large tree in our backyard and the bugs seemed to gather there in the early summer. My brother, the boys next door, and I became heros in the neighborhood when we would catch 100s of them to give away as "pets." I don't know if anyone else ever had this problem, but ours always died after one or two nights. We would catch these bugs and just grab the first container we could find, put holes in the lid, and throw in a few blades of grass as fast as we could. As children we thought that this imitation of the fire flies' real living environment would do. How foolish to think that a bug created to live outside with fresh grass, trees, and water could live in our cheap imitation.

I am still foolish. I am still guilty of that... I ask Jesus to come and dwell in a heart that is often a cheap imitation of what it was created to be. I ask God to give me "moments" and don't do anything to prepare my heart. I just sit and expect God to act. Do you know what I have learned?.... I have more moments when I have been in the Word. I have more of these moments when I have been worshipping God for who He is. I am more in tune with God sending me these moments when I have been worshiping Him. I desire nothing more than for my heart to be authentic...as God created me to be... In love with Him.

I wish you could be here tonight to see the fire flies and the lightening. I wish you were here so I could tell you of my God, who is BIG enough to know my heart...and yours. I wish you could be here to experience the cool breeze and captivating view. I wish you were here so I could tell you of the healing God offers. I wish you were here so I could see the look on your face as you looked at thousands of bugs in a field. I wish you were here to hear from God tonight, I have.