These past few days have been so hard. I never thought it would be so hard when David died. I am miserable and don't know how people handle the death of a sibling who they were able to communicate with and do "normal" things with. Waiting for Matt to get here on monday seems like forever. Please pray for rest and sleep, I am so tired but can't sleep and my mom seems to be on auto pilot as well. She never thought past the point that David would die sometime. Neither did I.