Thinking

It has been a crazy few days. I haven't been home much, I am not sure what I have been doing. I am about to finish up a book by my new favorite author, Don Miller, Searching for God Knows What. Its great and I would highly recommend it, and its predecessor, Blue Like Jazz.

Thinking to much (is that really possible) has been keeping me awake until all hours of the night or morning how ever you want to look at it! It has been a good time to catch up on reading and chatting with friends, but I would rather be sleeping in the middle of the night. I hate it when these things happen to me, but as I have said before I think this is when God speaks to me the most, or maybe when I am most willing to listen. It is more likely the second choice.

God is calling me to some serious stuff that I don't want to do. (Look I can make apostrophes again! My new keyboard is in!) It is time for me to go to a few people and talk to them about why I decided to resign from the children's ministry position and leave the church. For the past few months several people have been lied to and told the exact opposite of things that were said. I just want people to hear from me, even if they don't believe it, at least I will know that I have done what God is calling me too. I am not looking forward to this at all, from my experiences...This is not going to be a fun set of meetings.

I am hoping that these meeting will allow some closure/reconciliation in relationships so that I can move on with what God is calling me to. I just hope that is not as bad as I think it will be.