Just Jesus

Just when I thought I was over thinking about people from my old church, WHAM! It gets slammed up in my face one more time. OUCH! Tonight I went to a friend's house how lives across the street from my old pastor and used to be good friends. That freaked me out. I was sick to my stomach the whole way there, especially once we were actually 50 feet from their house. To make it worse, my "best friend" who isn't (and never really was apparently) was there. I have spent the last 3 0r 4 hours letting this float around in my head and wonder what they were doing, who all was there, ect. Even though I knew it would have been really hard for me, I wanted to be back with them, hanging out. Tonight was eye opening. I still miss them. They were a part of my life for almost 6 years and overnight, not anymore. In case anyone was wondering-THAT SUCKS!

So needless to say I am sad. I need to remember why I left. No matter how hard it is to do this, I also need to keep my focus on Jesus. Not pain, fear, old relationships, my old church, the hurt from people, the new church, changing relationships and new relationships. Just Jesus.