A Letter

Today was a day.

I had a meeting with the teaching pastor from the church where I resigned and his wife this afternoon. I feel good about that conversation and that I left things in a positive light. I was able to ask for forgiveness in the things I have done and extend forgiveness for things done against me. All of this went way better than I could have expected.

After a few other confrontations and conversations today, I have decided to be completely done with all contact with the people from this church. I sent a letter to be read to the congregation and a resignation letter to the Trustees and Pastoral leaders. I am leaving it up to the leadership of this part of God's body to tell those who need to know reasons I resigned, if need be.

In order to move on, I must let go. I am done with this whole deal and ready to RUN after Christ. To battle the thoughts and the "if onlys" I am going to memorize scripture in that idle mind time. I am excited to see how this will affect my thinking.

It is time to reprogram and rewire my heart. And I am ready.

This is the letter I sent to the church today:

As you may or may not know by now, I have resigned from my position as Children's Minister. This decision was both hard and easy all at once. Please let me explain.

It was hard because of my love for children.

It was easy because my personal relationship with Christ has been suffering for over a year. My sin has kept me from the Word and the heart of God. All of this time I have be acting and working out of my own power, not the power of Christ. I know that this sin has affected the Body and for that I am sorry. I beg that you will forgive me.

The most important thing in my life right now is reconnecting with the heart of God. I want nothing more than a passionate love for Him. Please pray for me as I get back to quiet times and back in the Word. I am looking forward to see how God is going to use this experience in all of our lives.

In Christ,

Alicia

posted by Alicia at 9/16/2004 10:44:19 PM