Routine

I think that everyone desires their life to be routine, normal, happy, and problem free. Why is it that we struggle with that day in and day out. Why do we (I) let the little things bother us (me)? Man, do I wish I knew? Why can't I trust God in EVERYTHING? He has proven himself faithful, day in and day out Christ is faithful and trust worthy? How do I get that through to my heart from my head? I know that I believe it.

Again, I am studying Luke 1 right now and I love it. He is writing "so that you may know the certainty of the things you have been taught." (vs 4). I have been amazed today with Zechariah. How many men went before him to offer sacrifices of incents to God? How many men went to the holy of holies and prayed for the Messiah? How often did these men beg God for the one who could deliver them? Forget that- How many times did Zechariah himself pray this? After all he was a man who was upright and blameless in the eyes of the Lord. How did Zechariah keep his heart fresh after praying for the same things over and over again? How did he go to God with the things dearest to his heart many times a day with becoming routine and dry? I want God to teach me how to do this. I know that I cannot on my own, but I desire to have a fresh heart for the things I have been praying for over and over.

I feel hopeless in a few things I have been praying about for a while. I know that God has the power and ability. I also know that HE knows the whole picture. I believe the things I am begging God for are for His kingdom, so I know that these are His will. I just have a hard time praying with excitement and freshness and that is what I desire.

Its been a rough day. I feel like I have been at war all day just to maintain ground. I don't feel like I have lost, but I sure feel beat up. I am trying to stay aligned with God to protect me... For I am weak , BUT HE IS STRONG!