Let Him Lead

Crying always makes me feel tired and worn out, but somehow I think God uses that to get me to a point of real vulnerability with Him. Today, I think God wanted me to be beyond myself. The kind of where I am shaking and trying to catch my breath crying. This kind of crying makes me thirsty too. Always, that's kind of weird.

I know that life won't ever be perfect, but God is. There will always be bad days and problems will always arise, but God will know about them . If you don't believe that look at this Isaiah 43:1-3 1 But now, this is what the LORD says- "Fear not, for I have redeemed you;I have summoned you by name; you are mine. 2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. 3For I am the LORD , your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;" Notice that God says "when" not "if". It is almost as if God uses this as a reminder that things will go wrong!

Now, I know that everyone says stuff like don't get comfortable with life because as soon as you do God will change it and don't tell God never because then God will do "it." I have no idea where people get this stuff from. I don't think that any of it is based on scripture. It has always been a challenge for me to listen to these things. Honestly, God can do what he wants anytime he wants-see Romans 9:18-29.

Here is what is going on for me. I have learned that God takes me out of my comfort zones to teach me incredible lessons about Himself and me. Today, God has me in that place that doesn't seem so safe. Its uncomfortable and I want to go back to where I know what to do and what to expect. I want to feel safe and protected, but right now I feel kind of like I have just been shoved out there to fend for myself. I know this isn't truth, but its how I feel. I know I am safe and protected and loved, but its scary. I must choose to stick close to God today. I must put myself and my desires aside and hold His hand and let Him lead.