The Shower

I keep mentioning how much "stuff" is going on in my heart and mind. The last week and a half or so have been tough. Thoughts of life coming and going through my head at speeds so fast that it has been hard to comprehend, yet alone share them.

I have been begging God for weeks to show me some things, and today in the shower, God came through! I know that sounds funny, but the shower is one of the greatest places to hear from God. I am alone, I can't hear the phone, there is no music or TV, and most of the time the dog stays clear of running water. (Not lakes, they act as a Jackson magnet, but when soap is involved he usually goes the other way!)

God spoke 2 big things today...
1. God spoke to me the perfection of HIS plan. Even if I think I have strayed from God's plan, He knows and ultimately it was His plan anyway. Ouch, it hurts to think about that one. He also reminded me of his protection. Psalms is full of verses about His protection. The verse I memorized for today is Psalm 3:3 "But you are a shield around me , O Lord, you bestow glory on me and lift up my head." God used this verse to remind me that I don't need to protect myself, He will provide protection.

2. I know that vague statements have a way of taking over my blog, but some things are left better unsaid here. All I can say to sum up my time in the shower is tha God is at work in my life in major things. He is breaking me and healing me all in one action. He is calling me to a life that will not be wasted on "stuff and business." He wants more... the question is do I want more?

Each day I am reminded of God's grace and love for me. It doesn't seem possible. Another thing that gets me EVERY time is the thought about God's knowledge of earth and people. He knows every grain of sand on every beach and at the bottom of every ocean, river, lake, and stream. He knows all of the starts in the sky and he knows and cares for every sparrow. Still I am worth more than all of those things. He knows the very number of hairs on my head. AND he knows that about everyone! My small brain just doesn't get it.

I love the fact that God uses the hard times to teach me and remind me of so much. These last few weeks haven't been much fun, but I am amazed at the things God is showing me. Today has been a "light" things are starting to make sense.