Resolutions and depression

So many people have made resolutions by this time of the year. They are going to loose weight, read more, watch less TV, and many more.

Jesus' last words on the cross were "It is finished." He resolved to die for our sins, become our sins, save us, give us the gift of eternal life.

I have resolved to live a life worthy of Jesus' resolution. To give God the glory for my life. To live a life that points others to the Kingdom. To have joy.

I am having trouble doing that though. I am tired. I get frustrated with situations and people. I am sad. I am not joyful in Christ. I love Jesus, but I still have these feelings and thoughts. This isn't what the Christian life is supposed to be like. I am reading in my Bible and praying that God will help me through this time. I think that most of it can be attributed with some depression and EVERYONE has a cure for that. Honestly, I don't want the cures of this world... I have tried that before. I do not know why I am sad or what causes it and neither does anyone else! God does and that is who I am trusting to help my through this.

God I need your help. Will you please restore my heart to a place of joy. You know that I desire to be able to function and serve you, but you also know that I am tired and in need of rest, God if this is your way of demanding rest, I pray that I will see that every waking moment. I want to feel better, but in Your timing. God please make my heart patient to wait for your healing. I know that what this world has to offer for depression is useless and the only true healing will come from Your heart to mine.